Today I have therapy for the first time since my old therapist dumped me!!!!!!!! I hate explaining all my lore with a straight face, but it's what's gotta be done. I have so much to talk about with her. It feels like my life is falling apart. Ok, no it doesn't. My life is fine. But I'm a perfectionist, and I notice the imperfections in my reactions, emotions, and coping skills, and it makes me feel like everything is going to fall apart soon. I'm just not happy!!!!! I've been genuinely depressed since probably 2014ish, and I've been neurotic and neurodivergent my whole life. Everything I do is a problem, and life is just learning that and figuring out how to fix it. HELPPPPPp